The last Thursday Thirteen of 2005...
1. I fulfilled a long standing desire to see Robert Plant in person on stage!
2. And Tom Petty!
3. And Doug E Fresh!
4. And Dr. John!
5. And i also got to see John Fogerty again, this time with John Mellencamp!!
6. Harry Potter and The Half-Blood Prince, and Charlaine Harris's "Dead" series
7. Paris, even in February!
8. Any year THREE Johnny Depp movies are playing in the theaters is a good year! (Finding Neverland, Charlie & the Chocolate Factory, The Libertine)
9. My iPod, Tivo & camera phone!
10. Losing 30 pounds (course I haven't lost any more, but the good news is I also haven't gained any back (and I just weighed myself to check!)
11. Discovering the Thursday Thirteens!
12. ME coming to visit in January and again in Feb, cruising with her (and the free side trip to Epcot) in May for our annual vacation AND getting to see her in NYC in Oct!
13. Bhoooot!
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1. Uisce
2. Lauren
3. Heather
4. Smoochy
5. Megan
6. Lilybleu
7. Cin
8. Leanne
9. OceanLady
10. Running2Ks
11. Caryn
12. Lillyput
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This was my original idea for the Thursday Thirteen today...don't read if you're in the least sad or don't want to feel sad or for various other reasons. I'm not looking for sympathy or anything like that, it's just how I feel and I wanted to write it down and get it out.
(and the guilt I feel about my Mom)
1. I'm quite sure I let my mother down in any number of ways.
2. Not the least was failing to make her a grandmother, which she wanted so very badly.
3. We didn't get along very well, especially when I turned 12 years old and from then on.
4. I'm not a very nice daughter (or person for that matter); I"m selfish & heartless & inconsiderate & impatient.
5. She really wanted to know where I stayed when I ran away from home at 14; I never told her.
6. I didn't visit her as frequently as I should've/could've at the nursing home.
7. When she passed, I wasn't there and I wish I had been. I was there 2 hours before.
8. I think that she didn't like me very much as a person, but loved me as her daughter.
9. The day I got married we had a fight because I felt she was drinking too much and she'd embarrass me.
10. Her favorite cookies were snickerdoodles; I kept saying, I'll make those for her, and then...she passed.
11. Our biggest fight involved two cats of mine (Jasiah & Smoky) that were staying at my parents home when I was living with my friend Sue & her son Joel. Mom got sick of hearing me say I was going to take them soon (I was waiting for the apartment complext to put screens in the windows so the cats couldn't jump out). Without telling me, she brought them to the humane society. The next day I stopped by the house to pick up the cats and found them gone. When I found out what happened...well, to say I was beyond mad would be an understatement. In later years, she always asked my friends if I'd forgiven her for that.
12. I never felt really close to her.
13. In my heart, I know I could've done more for her.
Comments
I saw Tom Petty about 12 years ago. I have to say he put on one of the best shows I have seen. Great entertainer in his day!
Paris in February -- lucky!! Wifey and I would like to visit Paris in every month. I think we've hit three so far. Hey, ya gotta collect something! :)
My list is here: http://whiskeytalking.blogspot.com/2005/12/thursday-thirteen-sort-of-resolutions.html
Oh Janet, this makes me sad to read this because you are so hard on yourself. I never knew your mom but I'm sure you both did the best you could do. I use to think that about my relationship with my mom, that I wasn't a very good daughter and that my mom wasn't proud of the little accomplishments that I made, when in fact she was and still is very proud of me. It took me a long time to realize this. You have done so much for your mom for what I have read through your blog and since I've known you, please never doubt that. I know right now it's hard for you to see that and in time you will see it. I told you this before and I will say it again, you inspire me in a lot of ways...don't ever forget it!
On your first list..I really like what you did. I wish I did that, but I did mine before I read yours. I'll have to do a belated 13 things of 2005 next week but here is mine for this week: http://foryourpawzonly.com/2005/12/thursday_thirteen_1.php
A very ying-yang type post- with things that made you happy and now things that made you sad. I think we will always fail the ones we love in some way because we're human and can't be everything they want us to be, but it still doesn't make it any easier to accept. :(
Aww hon. I bet your mom loved you as a daughter and a person despite any way you think you have let her down. Relationships are hard. Mother-dDaughter relationships are loaded with possibilities good and bad which make them harder. We are each the person we are and I am sure your mom had a great deak of respect for the person you are.
Some may disagree but I think it is good to get out how you feel even if it is not all happy stuff and fun memories. The stuff that is good for us isn't always fun and easy and happy.
Sending a big ole hug your way!
I am not sure any blogger loves Harry Potter as much as you seem to. ;)
My Thursday Thirteen: http://lilybleu.net/blog/?p=229
Hi Janet - I figured you'd be posting a Thursday thirteen, but I wasn't expecting 2! The second one was sad, but I'm glad you shared. Were you ever able to forgive her? or yourself?
And yes, I posted mine today too.
You go to a lot of concerts, woman! Rock on!!
As far as your original idea, let me just say this as a (young) mom of 2. Whatever guilt you feel, I can guarantee that your mom was proud of you and loved you exactly as you are. That's just how mom's are. Please don't be so hard on yourself, just embrace the wonderful things as I'm sure she did.
{{{hugs}}}
You saw Robert Plant! YOU are sooo lucky!!! I love the Led Zeppelin shirt you put on your dog in your slide show. I understand... I've never gotten along very well (since adolescence it seems) with my Mom either and I've always wondered why... she remarried and has a new family and I always felt NOT a part of it - I've always felt alone or like I was adopted or something.... but I've been reading this book lately called "Making Peace with your Parents" and it is making the load on my shoulders lighter so far. But I do know that a MOM always loves her child always no matter what even if it might not show at times!!!
Many congrats on the weight loss, the concerts, and all of your milestones (including, of course, HP!)
What a nice, positive list! Looks like you had quite the year. :-)
My thirteen are up, by the way.
I like this category...13 things that made me smile in 2005 were:
1. Starting a blog and discovering the blog community and meeting some wonderful people.
2. Finding that my comic book store guy Jeff and I are made from the same mold, becoming fast friends-including our families. That was the best gift of 2005.
3. Meeting my author idol Neil Gaiman at a signing in Chicago.
4. "Discovering" Netflix...I love it!
5. Going to see the (supposedly) final tour of Les Miserables and having incredible seats.
6. Mary and I having a week's vacation by ourselves this past summer.
7. Visiting an old friend in Tulsa and seeing his 2 year old daughter...she was a hoot, with boundless energy.
8. Hephastus in Chicago...terrific show!
9. Getting a bonus at work, very nice!
10. The wonderful books I read this year.
11. Introducing my daughter to the classic Thin Man movies and watching her fall in love with them.
12. Firefly and Serenity....OH MY GOSH!!!!
13. Having a wonderful 2 weeks off over Christmas to spend time with family and friends.
#13 cracks me up every time!
I know it's very hard for your right now, but we all have things that we aren't very proud of. Your mom loved you and she always will.
I wanted to share my saga in getting ahold of a copy of HP HBP with you, but apparently I didn't blog it. I put a copy on hold at the library and the day it was released I got a call saying that it was at the wrong library but they would send it to my library and then it got lost, but somehow made it to my library w/o anyone but me figuring it out. So I checked it out and read it twice before I returned it all pretty much before the library even figured out that it was found. LOL.
here's my 13 http://lillyput.blogspot.com
I saw Robert Plant in concert about 6 times. The first was in a funky little place in Boston called The Tea Party before anyone ever heard of Led Zepplin...around 1969. We were blown away! Saw them in the Boston Gardens after they got big.
I would like to see Tom Petty.
